I completed my schooling from V.S. Niketan
School and did my plus two from St. Xavier’s College, Maitighar.
Unlike many other students, I didn’t aim to
become a doctor ever since I was very little. In fact, it took me a great deal
of time to realize what I really wanted to do in my life, and now that I know
what it is, I have no repentance over anything.
I was pretty good at academics since I was
a school girl. I started coming first in school since grade four and I
completed my schooling under 100% scholarship (on Tuition Fees). I completed my
SLC with 90.38 % and passed Plus Two with an aggregate total of 85.5 %.
Now, since this article is mainly written addressing the students preparing for
entrance examination, I would like share my experiences during entrance and the
ups and downs associated with it.
The first blow I received in life was the
entrance-result blow when the results of my first IOM examination came out. I
got 83 marks on my first attempt. Oh yes! 83 is a great place to start from,
right? But, the questions were relatively too easy and I was relatively a good
student and almost every friend of mine had scored better. And so, I was not
happy. Not that I expected to get in on my first attempt, it’s just that I
hated myself then, because I knew that a little-more hard work could have given
me at least a little more marks and a little more satisfaction even if I didn’t
get in in the first place.
So then, I decided two things: 1. I had to
change, I had to improve and start studying better.
2. I had to stop fretting over what was
gone and become determined to create a life for myself where I would never have
to look back again.
And so, ‘The Hard-Work Phase’ of my life
began. But, I thought I should give Patan a try and so I started solving IQ
questions and even made it to the interview/OSCE but got eliminated at the last
round.
And guess what, I even applied for a
scholarship in Bangladesh. I had an aggregate of 88 marks in PCB, so I thought
I would make it, but, my Bio average was luckily/unluckily 86 which gave me
another blow, because Bio was all we needed to get through selection process
for Bangladesh and my little 86, haha, couldn’t make it for being a little less
than the cut-off 87.
So, eventually I thought I should gear up
for the ‘real’ upcoming entrance, ‘the BPKIHS entrance’. I started giving
weekly exams a month after the course had started and made it to the top 20 on
my first attempt. That was a motivation. In the first few exams I hadn’t been
able to attempt all the questions, but, with few hacks on time management, I
started getting 140 plus by attempting all the questions on the earliest entrance
days. So, slowly and gradually, my marks went up. If I were made to plot a
graph on my weekly exams performance vs time, I would plot an almost straight
slope with minimal ups and downs. I started getting better marks, from 140 to
150, 150 to 160, 160 to 170 and ended up scoring 172 on my BPKIHS entrance with
18th rank when there were 17 seats.
Now, that was another big blow in my life.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. The results were out @ 12:00 AM and I started
studying aggressively that night itself after realizing that I missed it
because of 1 rank and 0 marks. Before IOM’s exam, I went to Dharan twice
for counselling, expecting that may be someone would give up the seat for some
reasons and maybe I would get in, but no, I returned back with nothing but
hope, hope that things would change for the better.
One night, few weeks before IOM’s entrance,
I sat down to ponder over all the circumstances. I pondered over how I missed
the Top 20 scholarships in Name because I started giving exams after the
scholarship session was over. I pondered over how I never managed to receive
cash prize in Name because by the time I had started scoring well enough to
beat the toppers, the Dharan session classes were already over. I pondered over
how I missed Bangladesh because I didn’t score as well in Biology as I did in
other subjects. I thought about how much I enjoyed other things too, like
writing or public speaking, so I thought, maybe, maybe medicine was not for me.
So, I told my parents that I would appear IOE entrance or start preparing for
SAT to pave way for a foreign law degree. I thought about other subjects I
could explore like mass-communication or almost anything, but not medicine.
I am thankful now that my family was
strongly against me pursuing something else after having spent so much of time
and effort for medical entrance. The counselled me and so, I was ready this
time. It was impossible for me to study in donation or pursue something else,
so the next IOM entrance was everything to me. It was like a ‘do or die’
situation. The night the IOM’s entrance result came out, I had the most
terrible dream of my life. I realize how it does not matter now because that
same day, the best thing of my life happened. I finally, made it to IOM.
Two nights, two nights in my life, I
haven’t slept. On the night of BPKIHS’ result and on that day, on the day of
IOM’s entrance result. Many distractions come and go, but there is one thing I
conclude. It’s impossible to get in if you don’t believe that you can. I
performed poorly on my first attempt because I was not convinced that Ideserved it. And when, I was finally convinced that I had no other options,
that medicine was all I wanted, that there was no escaping out, that I was
responsible for everything that happens in my life, that if I am confident, I
take the credit, if I ruin an exam by being nervous, I am the one to take the
blame, that the entrance was all up to me and now was the time to do it, when I
was finally convinced of all these things, I made it to IOM.
And yes, now I am a content medical student
who is studying in the most prestigious institute of Nepal. And when I look
back at my life, I have absolutely no regrets and I know that I will never have
to look back again
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